Journal Entry: Sat May 11, 2013, 2:31 AM
I am what I have chosen to become. I've always have been, not bound to the constraints of, "normality", I do not care what I do in public in front of others, I do not care how I speak, sound, or act.
I act insane and idiotic and weird on the outside, but on the inside, I am intelligent. It's just becoming intelligent also meant I had to bring insanity into me as well, insanity for genius, two sides of the same coin.
I am what I am because I chose to be what I am, I am also insane but on the inside, I am generally good. I believe we should not steal, and lie. And I believe we should help those who are vulnerable and weak and need help, because they do not deserve to suffer unless they have wronged or harmed someone themselves.
I hate what I hate because I believe it's wrong. Sometimes I feel like I stand out for all the wrong reasons, and should, "Fit in" but then I think, "Why should I? Is there a reason or a point?" I also think sometimes I lie to myself just to get by the day, and I have yet to find a reason why I do so.. Is it to experience less pain or do I just do it because I just simply don't care.
I am also a perfectionist, even if I know by human nature I will make a mistake. But the past works I have made myself as I claim to be, "horrid" I absolutely despise, even if I was inexperienced at the time, but because of that. I now hate my inexperience in the past, absolutely despise, knowing that I made or did something I claim as a mistake and cannot fix.. Ever..
I am what I am and that is it.
Listening to: Seihou Kioh Gyoku: Castle Explorer in the sky
Reading: Various things
Watching: Random youtube videos
Playing: Seihou: Shuusou Gyoku